Disclaimers:-
1 Apologies for the poor singing.
However, I wanted to do the vocals myself as it is a largely autobiographical
story.
2. Apologies for ambient sounds
picked up by the microphone such as the computer fan and the cellar ceiling
creaking. But I did not have a sound booth.
3. The music was mixed using
headphones, so it will sound more balanced listened to via headphones.
4. For technical reasons the
volume of the CD is low, apologies.
5. If you enjoyed the music,
please visit the web site and leave a message at www.letsbuildanidealworld.net
for all to read?
About me:-
At the age of 16 I decided that I would like to use my life to work to build an ideal world. At that time I was top in science in my school year but I then diverted from the formal academic path to do my own research and development. I realised that to build an ideal world you first had to understand how to perfect the individual and indeed discover the reason why individuals did not grow to perfection. Accordingly I had to realise how to perfect myself and what impurity within me prevented me from growing to perfection.
When I was 18 I went to Liverpool to study engineering. At that time there was no academic study available in terms of how to build an ideal world. But I did think maybe there was some contemporary who was more advanced than myself.
Then, at 19, I met Yukiko (a Japanese lady) who was witnessing on the main shopping street. She represented a new, international, religious movement dedicated to saving the world. I loved Yukiko dearly and followed her devotedly because she loved the world so deeply. She loved God, and explained that God was crying for each one of us and longed for the world to be saved.
However, after several years of cautious investigation and enquiry in the end it became apparent she was ultimately deceptive and not trustworthy.
However, in desperation, at that time I did apply to join the English church, but they rejected my application, probably upon reflection, because I was not sexually pure enough for their standards. On my terms however, I found most of them not to be as loving, big minded and sacrificial as myself. It appears that until you asked to join the movement the members were very loving and kind. However, once you asked to join you were subjected to a tyranny. I was not impressed.
At this time, my parents also rejected me because they did not like my chosen religion. This situation put me under immense stress.
At about age 25 I ended up living on streets of London and was fasting and praying deeply. One fast was 22 days long.
I then developed a spiritual awareness. The church told my parents about this and my parents collected me and brought me home and had me examined by a psychiatrist who diagnosed me as having a major psychosis. I was admitted to hospital and put on a very powerful medication which had appalling side-effects, but the spirituality went away.
Since then I have had 2 more prolonged episodes of schizophrenia one of which is the basis for song ‘History m’ (song number 13) but I have now been stable for several years.
During my stays in hospital, I concluded that my spirituality was based on an assumption because non of the nurses or doctors could see or hear my spirit guide.
I have extended this idea of ‘making an assumption’ to all faiths in the modern world and instead recommended that religious people focus on true love which we can understand and recognise from first principles without making an assumption.
It has always been my intention to call out to like minded people to join me on the journey to work to build an ideal world. This music album is the result of my research and development and I hope you will be inspired enough to take the next steps towards the ultimate goal, building an ideal world.?